5/23/2012 Going Back Home Today realized how much I miss my parents, and how badly I want to see them. For once, I took the time to think about what I look like to them when I go back home. I know that they’ve only seen me leave and arrive once during the fall semester, but if I stand to think about it… I left so happy and energized to begin the semester at Columbia. I wanted to conquer the world… When I returned for Christmas break I feel like they were shocked. I returned quiet, exhausted, drained. I wonder what thoughts passed through their heads when they saw me. We were supposed to visit some family in Mexico, but we almost stayed behind so they could let me sleep. I slept so much those first couple of days back home. I still remember my dad told me to watch out for drugs, as if I had the time for that during school. I wish they could, or maybe they do, understand how difficult it is to be in New York City by myself. They say I shouldn’t isolate myself, but I feel like most of the time I do. I’m usually alone. I try to study, but I have figured out that it doesn’t really matter. I always score the same. This semester was even harder than the last. When I return, will I look the same? I feel like I’ll look even worse. I feel like I go to Columbia to exhaust myself and return home to recuperate. Next semester it will be even harder. Will I be able to endure it all four years?
I always knew that I attended a wealthy school, but I didn’t realize just how wealthy until last night. I admit that I rummaged through the pile of clothing for donation. Needless to say, I pulled out a Micheal Kors jacket with the tag, a Marc Jacobs scarf, a J Crew tee, and some Banana Republic Sweaters. There was a whole lot of other stuff that didn’t fit me, if not I would have taken more. I wish I felt some sort of shame, but I don’t. New wardrobe!
A lot of people say that you should enjoy your youth… Party, drink, have fun, etc. I feel like I rarely do any of these things, but it’s not like I feel like it. Most of the time I don’t have the mood to go dancing or anything. I’ve only drank once in my life, and I acted very much unlike myself… Drugs are a huge no, but I do remember a time when I enjoyed dancing and joking around. What happened to that part of me…? When did I suddenly grow up? I wonder… it used to be so easy back then… Will I one day look back at my life and feel like I didn’t “live”?
I was walking up the stairs towards the Wallach Sky Lounge. I totally pictured myself as a an orphan kid eagerly sprinting to see something exciting… except I met my Chemistry test instead…. I have no clue why it happened, maybe something about the architecture of the building.
Earlier today I remembered something that happened to me in Kindergarten. The class was taking a small math test that involved simple addition. I remember taking the test and finishing it quite fast. I thought it was super easy; however, it turned out that everyone in the class had gotten a hundred, and I was the only one that got one question wrong. I remember everyone else, but me, received a chocolate Snicker. As I sat in the round table with all my classmates, watching them eat their snickers, I swore to myself that I would become a smarter and more successful person than them when I grew up…… I think it’s going pretty good so far.
Today I saw one of my friends walking with other people. While he walked, not once did he look up. He walked with his head down, and I could not help but wonder if it was because he is ashamed of himself. He often talks about how he wants to change and be someone else. He wants to do something with his life, but he’s always scared or ashamed of speaking up. I think walking with your head up high is a good way to start………………
theater tickets can be gotten for cheaper than normal NYC prices, but how often does this actually happen. I was also wondering how much living in the city takes away from aspects of a more traditional campus experience - for example, are there many parties on campus, or do people usually just go out to bars and the like? Lastly, I've heard bad things about Columbia professors not caring about students and career advising being not so great. Do you find this to be true? Have you had some
Hey, no problem. I need some distraction. (: As a freshman you’re required to get a meal plan and you have housing on campus, so it’s not that expensive. Now, if you’re into shopping and all of that, money flies. I had a good amount of extra scholarship money my first semester, and I spent it all in a matter of months which forced me to completely stop spending this semester. It’s just a matter of spending wisely. I’m not sure which school you got into, but i’m in the engineering school, which means I rarely find time to explore the city. I really only go out during breaks and sometimes on the weekends for groceries, etc. Columbia has a program called CUArts that offers free admission to almost every NYC museum and discount tickets to concerts/broadway shows. I know this year I got free tickets to see Daniel Radcliffe on “How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying”, “Phantom of the Opera”, and “Spiderman” and I got to visit the MoMA. Also, I got discount tickets to see a classical music show at the Lincoln Center. Columbia is great in finding discount tickets.
I’m not much of a party person, but people do tend to do both. A lot of people have fake ID’s and what not. Most of the parties on campus consist of mostly drinking, but there is the occasional fun dancing party.
In terms of professors, it’s just like any other school. Some professors care, others do not. I took classes at UT before coming to Columbia, and I can say that the quality of the education offered here is much better than any state school. The difficulty and competition is insane. Advising is okay. There are a lot of majors and not all the advisors are knowledgeable about every class. Most of the time you have to do your own research with other students. It’s what has become the easiest for me.
I don’t know what your financial aid package is like, but I know that I haven’t had to waste a lot of money or take out any loans. Congrats and I hoped this helped!